Part I

Ninety Days In March...!

Chapter 1
Special Requirements... For This Submissive... SUBUD Soul's Specific Episodes... Of Writing... Commanded... Directed... And Monitored... By Her Creator... Her Beloved Heavenly Father... Allah Almighty God... According To His Perfect Will For Her... His Ever Loving Daughter...!

Chapter 2
Most Unpleasant... Physical Discomforts... And Painful Flashbacks... Of Great Remorse...!

Chapter 3
Reflections... On Muftiah's Unique... Jiwa To Jiwa Marriage... To Much Younger Farlan... Which Moments... Of Their Holy Union... Are Designed... Orchestrated... Conducted... Directed... And Monitored... By Allah Almighty God... And His Specific... Perfect Will For Them... His Loving Children...!

Chapter 4
How Newly Married... Farlan And Muftiah... Are Shocked To Learn... That They Are Not To Become... Regular Members... Of A SUBUD Group... As A Married Couple... Just Like Everyone Else...! Because Their Creator... Almighty Allah... Has Other Plans... For His Loving Daughter... Muftiah...!

Chapter 5
A Very Bewildered... Unhappy Muftiah... Receives To Seek Spiritual Help... From Her Dear SUBUD Sister Helper... Miriam Brannan...!

Chapter 6
Muftiah's Most Awesome... Holy Night Of Christmas Eve... With Ibu... Bapak's Beloved Departed Wife... From Indonesia... Whom She Had Never Met... In Person...! ... The Virgin Mary...! ... And Dear Honora Katz... An Unknown To Her... Jewish SUBUD Sister... Recently Arrived... From England...!

Chapter 7
Doubting Muftiah... Gets The Shock Of Her Life... When The Power of Almighty God... Causes Bright Blue Shafts Of Light... To Come Down... And Painfully Pierce... The Top Of Her Head... As She Is Told... Through Miriam's Perfect Receiving... Proclaimed Out Loud... That Constantly Arguing... and Fighting With Her... Much Younger Farlan... Is Her Husband...!

Chapter 8
Muftiah's Obedience... Of Accepting Her Training of... "Now Inner Life Only... No More Outer Life...!"... Which Is Very Difficult To Accept... By Her Fiercely Independent Self... Is Tested... By Almighty Allah...!

Chapter 9
How Almighty Allah... Shuttles His Two... Loving... Obedient SUBUD Children... Farlan And Muftiah... From Place To Place... Every Eighteen Months Or So... Over Seven Years... For Their Much Needed... Spiritual Growth... And Development...!

Chapter 10
How Farlan And Muftiah... Are Miraculously Saved... By An Angel Of God... From The Humongous Devastation... Of Hurricane Frederick... Which Destroys... Their Brand New... Mobile Home...!

Chapter 11
How Farlan And Muftiah... Learn The Very Real Truth... About "Speeded Up Purification..."! And Farlan Experiences... A Rude Awakening... About Circumcision...! Reminding Sexually Fractured Muftiah... Of Her Many Intimate Conversations... With Both Troubled SUBUD Men... In South Africa... And Troubled SUBUD Brothers... In The USA... Regarding Their Sex Lives... And Secret Fantasies... And Some Of Them... Even About Their Homosexuality...!

Chapter 12
While Living In Soquel... California... Her Heavenly Father... Forbids... His Loving Daughter... Laura... To Worship Him... At The Santa Cruz SUBUD House...! And Also Forbids Her... To Observe The Upcoming Ramadan Fast...! All Because Of Her Disobedience... And Willful Defiance... Of His Perfect Will For Her... Having Angrily Expressed His Disappointment... In Her... While Totally Paralyzing Her Body... In San Francisco...! Then Informs Laura... About Her Possible... Future Life... Of Work... ... ... And Marriage...!

Chapter 13
Newly Re-Named Muftiah... Is Made To Experience... How Sad... Empty... And Foolish... Her Life Will Be... If She Does Not Accept... The Married State Again...! Then Is Brought Together... With Her Much Younger... Future Husband... Farlan... About Three Months Later...!

Chapter 14
Muftiah Meets A Fascinating... Psychic Society Lady... Who Turns Out To Be Farlan's Wife...! Shortly After Which... He Has A Most Interesting... Spiritual Experience... In Which He Is Shown... In No Uncertain Terms... That His Four Year Marriage... To This Much Older Woman... Is Definitely Over...!

Chapter 14-A
Farlan Receives ... To Relocate... To Of All Places... The Tropical Paradise Of Hawaii...!

Chapter 15
By Total Contrast... On The Very Last Night Of Ramadan... Farlan Receives To Relocate... From Balmy Kona... Hawaii... To The Mile High City Of Denver... Colorado... In The Middle Of Winter...!

Chapter 16
How Muftiah Is Stopped... From Physically Attacking Her Husband... Farlan... Ever Again... Through The Miracle... Of A Suddenly Materialized Hammer...!

Chapter 17
How Muftiah Is Terrifyingly Stopped... By Allah Almighty God... From Attending Group Latihan... In A Church... Because The SUBUD Members... Regard The Church Higher... Than The Miracle... Of Worshipping Their Creator... Through The Latihan Kejiwaan... Which Means... That Praying To Him... From The Lower Forces... Of Their Hearts And Minds... Is Superior... To Spiritually Worshipping Him... From Their Higher Forces... Through Their Unconditional Surrender To Him...!

Chapter 18
Muftiah Has An Angel Dream... Which Leads To The Great Blessing... Of A "Rajah"... From Her Beloved Spiritual SUBUD Father... Bapak... And Special Latihans For Her... Set Up By Him...!

Chapter 19
Muftiah's Beloved SUBUD Sister... Helper Supreme... Siti Rahayu... Shows Her Five Years Younger Sister... Muftiah... How To Be The Perfect Example... Of A True Spiritual Helper... For SUBUD Seattle...!

Chapter 20
The Unique Way... In Which Muftiah... Meets Farlan's Many Relatives... In The Deep South...!

Chapter 21
Wherein Muftiah... Instead Of Farlan... Receives To Relocate... For A Change... And In Quite A Unique... Oblique Way...!

Chapter 22
Farlan And Muftiah... Find It Easy... To Instantly Uproot... Their Comfortable Lives... And Relocate... In Following Bapak's Advice... In Their Joint Quest... For True Spiritual Growth... And Development... Being Their Primary Purpose... In Preparation... For Their Glorious... Eternal Afterlives... In The Paradise... Of SUBUD Heaven...!

Chapter 23
Farlan... The Tiger... And Muftiah... The Panther... Are Brought Together... Jiwa To Jiwa... By Almighty Allah... As Virtual Strangers...!

Chapter 24
From "Inner To Inner" ... To "Outer To Outer" ... Is Extremely Difficult... For Both Farlan And Muftiah...!

Chapter 25
Muftiah Learns A Very Painful Lesson... When She Tries To Seduce Her Husband... From Her Own Will...!

Chapter 26
Farlan And Muftiah Quickly Learn... That Allah Almighty God... Is In Charge... Of Every Aspect... Of Their Marriage... Including Sexual... And Not Them...!

Chapter 27
Muftiah Is Trained... For A Change... Not To Be A Submissive Wife... To Her Husband... As In Her Past Two SUBUD Marriages...!

Chapter 28
The Abrupt End... Of Working In The World... Is Very Difficult... For Fiercely Independent Muftiah... To Accept...!

Chapter 29
Muftiah Finally Accepts... Being Only A Housebound... Inwardly Muslim Wife... And Homemaker...!

Chapter 30
The Greatest Dilemma... Of Muftiah's Marriage... Concerns Cooking... For Her Husband...!

Chapter 31
Muftiah Gets "Attacked" ... Daily... In Her Kitchen...!

Chapter 32
Muftiah Finds Out... In Canada... That There Are Other SUBUD Wives... Besides Herself... Who Have Great Difficulty... In Cooking For Their Husbands...!

Chapter 33
Farlan Is Summoned To Indonesia... By Bapak... During His Latihan Kejiwaan...! And Not To Leave Her Out... Bapak Visits Muftiah... In Spirit... In Their Home... In Bellevue... Followed By A Miracle...!

Chapter 34
Muftiah... Constantly Receiving... That It Is Her Time... To Leave Earth... Explains Her Writing... In Capsulated Form...!

Chapter 35
At The Very Beginning Of The Ramadan Fast... After About Eighteen Months... Of Living In The Northwest State of Washington... Farlan Receives... That They Are To Relocate... Once Again... This Time Back To California...!

Chapter 36
Muftiah Comes To Understand... Her Strange Detached Feeling... When She Gets A Shocking... Puzzling Message... From Her Dear... Lifelong Guardian Angel Friend... In Their New Home... In Daly City...!

Chapter 37
Two Reincarnated Japanese Cousins... Now SUBUD Sisters... One Still Japanese... And The Other Now... English/French/Italian... Receive The Very Same Guidance... About Muftiah's Impending Stroke... Independently Of Each Other...!

Chapter 38
How Two Devoted Children Of God... Nadia And Dimitri... Are Introduced To... And Deeply Touched... In Their Souls... By The Miracle... Of The Holy Word "SUBUD"... In A Very Unusual Way... Blessing And Transforming Them... Forever...!

Chapter 39
How Almighty Allah... Very Abruptly... And Shockingly Ends... Muftiah's Intense... Seven Year... Jiwa To Jiwa Marriage... To Farlan...!

Chapter 40
Dear "Itoko" (Cousin)/SUBUD Sister Isnaini... Is Taken Off The Earth... And Up To SUBUD Heaven... To Bring Back Significant Messages... For Muftiah...!

Chapter 41
Muftiah Is To Make Contact... With All Those Souls... Important To Her... All Over The World... Asking Their Forgiveness... And Bidding Them Farewell... And Inviting Them... To Vigil With Her... On The Eve Of October 27th... Then Contact Bapak... To Ask His Permission... To Leave Earth... As His Devoted Helper...!

Chapter 42
Almighty Allah... Commanding Muftiah... To Hold A Vigil... In Her Home... On The Night Of October 27th... Greatly Upsets Isnaini...!

Chapter 43
Muftiah Causes Great Turmoil... When She Is Commanded... By Almighty Allah... To Bring Out Into The Open... That Which Was Secret... Between Farlan... And Her Dear "Itoko" (Cousin)/SUBUD Sister Isnaini...!

Chapter 44
Muftiah's Special Night Of Vigil... On Her Last Night On Earth... Surrounded By Her Dear SUBUD Brothers And Sisters... Is Finally Here...!

Chapter 45
Muftiah Awakens... Amazed... To Find Herself... Still On Earth... Until Her Guardian Angel Reminds Her... That Grace Kelly Died... Of The Second Stroke...!

Chapter 46
Bapak's Most Helpful Message... Followed By Two Years Of Suffering... One Stroke After Another...!

Chapter 47
Muftiah Has Some Euphoric... Meaningful... Flying Encounters... With A Special Host Of Angels Of God... Sent Down To Earth... To Accompany Bapak Home... To His Rightful Place... In Heaven...!

Chapter 48
Muftiah Experiences "Dying Of Stroke... In Full Awareness..." ... On A Daily Basis...!

Chapter 49
Muftiah Is Sometimes Given A Brief Respite... From Her Suffering... Even To the Point... Of Being Able To Go Out...!

Chapter 50
Muftiah Seeks Help... From Her SUBUD Sister Helpers... And Is Very Disappointed... In Them...!

Chapter 51
The Different Forms Of Received Guidance... By Both Farlan And Muftiah...!

Chapter 52
Muftiah Patiently Waits... For The Prophecy... Of Farlan And Isnaini... Now Called Ismana... To Be Fulfilled...!

Chapter 53
Muftiah Cries Out In Protest... Once... Every Year... And She Has To Keep Reminding Herself... Of The Miracle of SUBUD... Bestowed By Almighty God... On Those Worthy Souls... Of His Created Children... As His Greatest Blessing... In This Chaotic... Violent Day And Age...!

Chapter 54
Muftiah Is To Continue To Write... While On A Water Only Fast...!

Part II
The Turbulent Saga... Of Jacques/Mark... And Grazia/Laura...!

Chapter 1
Muftiah Is Forced To See Her Arrogant Self... First As Grazia... Then Laura... In Her Three Year Turbulent Marriage... To Difficult To Live With... Jacques/Mark...!

Chapter 2
Bella And Laura Receive... Where To Find Mark...!

Chapter 3
Euphoric Laura... To Her Great Dismay... Has A Shocking... Rude Reception... From Her Husband... Mark...!

Chapter 4
A Bewildered Laura... Is Devastated... When Her Angry Husband Mark... Treats Her Roughly... Like A Common Whore...!

Chapter 5
Mark Reluctantly Lets His Wife... Hang Around...!

Chapter 6
For The Next Three Weeks... Mark Subjects His Wife... Laura... To A Relentless Barrage... Of Scornful... Sneering Criticisms... By Day... And Rough Sexual Assault... By Night... Every Single One Of Them...!

Chapter 7
Mark Abruptly Surprises Laura... With Delight... And Hope...!

Chapter 8
Laura Finally Reaches The End Of Her Endurance... Feeling Insulted... Beyond Measure...!

Chapter 9
Laura's "Out" ... Is A Charming Englishman...!

Chapter 10
Mark Is Utterly... Magnificently Transformed...!

Chapter 11
Laura Has Gone Too Far... With Mark... Who Is Once Again... Stony... Aloof... And Unyielding... With His Red Indian Cree Face...!

Chapter 12
Laura Has A Happy Reunion... With Her Dear Friends... The Davises...!

Chapter 13
A Wonderful... Carefree Week... Spent With The Davises... On The Island Of Antigua... As The Turbulent Saga... Of Mark And Laura... Continues...!

Chapter 14
Laura's Brief... Happy Respite... In Her Beloved England... Is Marred By An Ominous Warning Dream... In London... Amidst Glorious Plans... For A Happy Future...!

Chapter 15
A Surprise Letter... From Miami... In The USA...!

Chapter 16
An Ecstatically Happy... Exhilarated Laura... Flies Off To Barbados... Once More... Where She Has Another Brief... Most Unusual Respite... In Bridgetown...!

Chapter 17
Mama Rosie... The Big-hearted... Barbadoan Hotel Owner... Rescues Laura... "For Love..."!

Chapter 18
A Young American Sailor Boy... Comes Up To Laura's Room... "For Love..."!

Part III
Back In The U.S.A... To Stay For Good... With All Of This Soul's Years Of Globe Trotting... Finally Come To An End...!

Chapter 1
Happily Flying Off To Miami... In The U.S.A. Again... Laura's Stroke Of Good Luck... Suddenly Turns To Shocking Bad Luck... As She Dreamily Reminisces... About Meeting Jacques Parent... in Pretoria South Africa... And How The Miracle Of SUBUD... Had Divinely... "Dropped" ... Into Her Lap...!

Chapter 2
Bewildered Laura... Is Subjected... To One Devastating Shock... After Another... Including Mark's Rude Demand... For A Divorce... Over The Phone... On The Very Eve... Of Her Arrival... In Miami...!

...read more in Chapter 3 (work in progress)

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